brrly babbles about being happy and planning ahead
hello everyone! i know i already posted a blog post today about some math proofs book i'm reading but i wanted to post another one about how i'm currently feeling in life because i feel like i have changed a bit over the past few months!!! first i really want to talk about ap testing because i am very happy about that and then i will just talk about my life in general and how i am feeling!
in my past blog posts i've been talking about the mass amounts of stress that have been bringing me down and making me very not happy!!! i don't know when this stopped happening but it was around a month and a half ago and let's just say i am so glad i am not super super stressed anymore. i haven't been super mad in a while and when i am it's just annoyance and it goes away in a bit. it's also usually when i'm trying to solve some hard math problem. actually it's always when i'm trying to solve a hard math problem i don't really get mad any other time. anyways i have been very happy the past couple of weeks partially because of chem. i felt really good during the ap chem exam and i think studying and working hard also made me feel really good about myself.
i realized just about 2 months ago that i haven't been working as hard as i know i can and in fact i've been working less hard than i did during my freshmen year. i think it's because i didn't want to burn myself out so i wasn't putting in a lot of effort. in fact i barely studied for my chem unit tests this year now that i think about it and that's probably why i wasn't doing as good as i wanted to do. i wasn't studying in the way that benefit me the most and i've figured out that making summary sheets really helps me connect the concepts together. that's how i studied for algebra in 8th grade and it was very beneficial for me so that's probably why!!! 8th grade algebra was also how i learned to study in general and why i like math, because i had to work hard to achieve my scores and that made me feel good about myself! well i've actually always liked math but algebra challenged me a bit and i like a challenge. i was never challenged in math before and that's why i never bothered to explore any further cus i didn't know there was interesting math out there other than elementary math. anyway that's not the point!!!
i was talking about how i haven't been working super hard this year and like i guess that's why i was so stressed. i wasn't pushing myself to my limits and subconsciously i knew that. well actually i don't know if i was pushing myself to my limits but i think i just wasn't working the way i usually do and that's why i got burnt out so easily. also i think i just had no motivation. actually i don't really care WHY i was stressed i'm just glad that i have been able to push myself the past couple of weeks. i especially pushed myself to study for chem and comp sci a. i didn't study SUPER hard for comp sci a but i was super tired after ap chem and i still had to study for comp sci a and i could've just like... not studied... BUT I DID ANYWAY and i did a lot of mcq practice so i'm glad i was able to push myself even though i didn't feel like doing anything at all. for chem i studied a lot and i did a lot of practice problems and i really pushed myself beyond what i wanted to do. like i felt tired at times doing the practice problems for the different units but i pushed myself to reach a small goal that i would set for myself everyday like an example would be "do all the practice problems for unit 7 and you will be done" something like that and those small goals really helped my feel good about studying and about working hard.
AND ALL OF MY EFFORT WAS WORTH IT!!! the mcq was really easy and the frq was kinda easy like i know i got one wrong for sure but i'm just glad i was certain on practically everything else. i knew every answer to the mcq and i am honestly very confident that i got everything right and if i got something wrong it's because of a small detail that distinguished right and wrong among two answers that i failed to notice.
other than ap exams i also got a couple of leadership positions that i'm VERY excited about!!! one of them is for a nonprofit that is dedicated to bridging the gender gap in competition math and i am so happy i got the position because i have so many ideas that i want to implement and i really want to bring the nonprofit to real life because all of our events are online. an in person event would be a lot of work but it would also be something that i can be proud of and i really want to be proud of myself because it feels good so i will work hard to accomplish it!!!
i've also decided since i received the leadership position with the nonprofit that i really want to qualify for AIME this year and that i will dedicate a lot of my time towards studying for math olympiad! i didn't have my priorities set straight last and this year so now that i do i will study super super duper hard and qualify for AIME and then hopefully qualify for math prize for girls and maybe even pass AIME LIKE WHO KNOWS maybe i work so hard like 8 hours a day during the summer that i even qualify for USAMO OOOOHHHH anyways that's beyond my goal but i really just want to qualify for AIME and math prize for girls and then i also want to get accepted into promys because it's been my dream since 8th grade. i will make 8th grade me proud!!!! i will make math obsessed brrly proud!!!!!!!!!! please please please please please. this is why i haven't had a lot of homework at home. i do all of it at school because i know that if i do it all at school i will have time at home to dedicate towards math olympiad studying and qualifying for AIME and getting into promys and math prize for girls is the biggest motivator that could exist to make me work hard. ap exams are also over and i practically have two free periods so i do homework in those periods too. life is so free. LIFE IS SO FREE!!!!
also i was thinking about my schedule for next year a while ago and i thought i wouldn't want to take a zero period but honestly...i wouldn't mind...
i think i just down in the dumps during december thru march because those were my moodiest months and i was having a horrible day like everyday and i decided that i could not handle a zero thru six again so i bummed out and now i have to request course changes late into the year and i might not even get in but it's worth a try!
i may or may not take 6 aps and if not 6 i will take 5 including a sport but i honestly don't know yet so i need to discuss it with my friends and stuff and see if i should! also i am keeping in mind that i want to dedicate a lot of time to math olympiad so maybe i won't take 6 but idk!!! i need to know more about the workload and train myself to be more disciplined than i am this year because i am perfectly fine with getting less sleep because i'd still get at least 6 hours a day. the only reason i get 6 hours a day this year is because i just have a bad habit of staying up late doing stuff like writing this blog post. if i really want to stay dedicated to my craft then i will probably have less time to blog post unless on the weekends and i will have to stay on task all the time. i'll train myself during the summer to do this because i have a lot of motivation and i am not about to lose my ticket to promys simply because i got lazy and thought i would have another chance. i do not have another chance after this year. this year counts for everything. i need to qualify for aime or else. or at least i need to finish my proofs book and learn how to write proofs and get into advanced mathematics before the promys application!!!!! okay anyways...
here is what my schedule might be looking like next yr:
option 1 (6 aps and a sport)
- ap bio
- ap physics
- ap lang (dual enrollment OR hybrid im not sure yet. hybrid would mean a free fifth period two days a week aka a period where i can do homework from another class as well, but that would also mean i have to study and take the ap test lolol)
- ap spanish
- ap calc bc
- ap psych or ap environmental sci
- cross country/track (i am in season practically the entire year except during may and june)
- ap physics
- ap lang
- ap spanish
- ap calc bc
- ap psych or ap environmental sci or ap bio, i need to choose one
- cross country/track
- amc 12a studying EVERYDAY or else i will not forgive myself
- in addition, participating in
- girls math comp nonprofit co-chapter head
- girls math comp nonprofit social media manager (exec board)
- co pres of girls who code club
- publicist of environmental club
- steam nonprofit club president ??
- cross country and track
- self studying math subjects when i have time, focus on proofs tho
- proofs
- linear algebra (for funzies cus im taking it senior year anyway)
- calc 3 (for funzies too cus im taking it senior year)
- competitions other than amc 12a
- congressional app challenge
- girls who code ai challenge
- swift student challenge
- probably more i just need to find some lololol
- us history. i promise not to cheat on any tests or quizzes because i genuinely want to learn about us history and i don't want to be a stupid american that doesn't know anything about their own country
- it will probably be around 2 hours a day
- self study calc bc because i like calculus and i don't think i can go a whole 2 months without doing some. maybe not finish the curriculum but just get to know the main concepts and stuff so i don't have to struggle during the school year!
- at least 2 hours a day maybe? if not just one hour, but if no extra time then it's fine cus this isn't a priority of mine over the summer
- work on congressional app challenge and finish at least half of it
- maybe start coming up with ideas now so you don't have to die over the summer thinking about what to develop and instead just work on developing it
- this is a priority so i MUST work at least 2 hours a day on this and i will not be allocating time from this extracurricular to other extracurriculars cus i need to be locked this year for congressional app challenge
- learn how to develop an actual app and improve coding skills! i know how to code in java and python but i really want to be able to make cooler and bigger projects. i've also made a website as a project for the gwc ai challenge this year which i did not win but it's okay but i was really proud of the website and it looked pretty good so hopefully i can make a webapp in the future and i will learn how to do so during the summer!
- maybe 1 hour a day dedicated to any course i find online :)
- i should probably learn how to program in swift so maybe webapps and swift so that would be 2 hours daily
- i also need to learn how to use figma if i want to make webapps sooo... learn figma!
- study for amc 12a 6 of out 7 days a week for...
- at least 3 hours a day.
- concepts/theorems for 2 hours (this includes going over textbooks and doing the practice problems, watching videos/lectures, practicing mental math skills, etc.)
- practice test for 1 hour
- if not 3, 4-6 hrs a day!
- concepts/theorems for 3 hours or whatever is left over
- practice tests for 3 hours or whatever is left over
- that would leave me with like 7 hours to do all of the other stuff i want to do so that's reasonable right!!! and if not 6 hours for math olympiad and instead 3, i'd have like 10 hours dedicated to everything else and that's pretty fricking good. YAY SO FUN
- gwc sip
- it will be a 1 and a half week long program and i will have to dedicate 4-5 hours of my time to this everyday during the program so i will have no choice but to allocate some time from my non-priority extracurriculars to this so that's fine, it's just one and a half weeks
- self studying proofs. i kind of want to finish my proofs book by the end of summer and i have already started so i will have this month including summer which is around 3 months and a half so i got that!
- i will dedicate at least an hour of my time everyday to this and if i have free time 2 hours
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