brrly babbles about amc 12 and achieving the things she wants to achieve

guys i don't know why i'm so nervous right now but i think it's because i just got a message saying i am now co social media director for this nonprofit that focuses on bridging the gender gap in competition mathematics and it made me reminded that i really really REALLY need to lock in if i want to qualify for AIME this year and get into PROMYS. if u have no idea what either or those are then i will update u because i love to babble as you can tell by the numerous blog posts i have posted. 

every year, the mathematical american association administers the AMC 8, 10, and 12. it is a math test that is much much harder than your normal highschool math test, simply because it requires so much creative and analytical thinking that is typically not taught in highschool. in fact i scored very badly on the amc 10 this year and that is also due to the fact that i did not study much this year but i still did pretty badly. also the time crunch was another thing. also i have been reviewing the problems the past month and like how did i even miss these problems they're actually easier than i thought but anyways if you score very high on one of the amc that you took then you qualify for AIME which is another really hard test and i don't plan on passing that one because qualifying for AIME is already pretty freaking hard guys...

i have to take the AMC 12 because it's for 11th and below, AMC 10 is for 10th and below, and AMC 8 is, YOU GUESSED IT, for 8th and below. i wish i would've known about competition math sooner aka in middle school so i could've studied for a longer time and had enough preparation by the time i got to highschool to qualify for AIME in 9th grade and then maybe study super super hard and get to qualify for USAMO. UGHHHH FRICK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE i hate everything but it's okay because i will study super super hard this year because now i have the weight of getting into PROMYS as well. 

if i qualify for AIME it'll look really good on my PROMYS application. it's not required but it's probably recommended that i do and plus qualifying for AIME will look good on my college application as well and also i just really want to prove to myself that i can achieve what i want and i was able to prove this to myself by studying super hard for ap chem and the test was so easy because i studied hard for it. maybe it was just easy in general but on my life if i hadn't studied i wouldn't have gotten some of the questions right so that means my studying was part of the reason i found the test easy meaning my hard work meant something!!!! and that means if i study hard for the AMC 12 I WILL BE ABLE TO PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I AM WORTHY!!! THAT I AM SOMETHING!!!

also i just really want to get the young women in mathematics certificate and qualify for the math prize for girls competition at MIT because it looks fun and i want to meet other girls in mathematics and i also just want to be flown to MIT and see what it's like there because it looks so cool

okay i think i'm gonna go to sleep and tomorrow i promise to go to the library from 12 to 5 and do all of my homework and study for at least 3 hours for the AMC. this entire day i haven't done any competition math but instead i watched a lot of youtube videos and rewatched some modern family and i did some mathematical proof exercises from book (how to prove it, i have a blog series for it because i like writing blogs for my books) and i also did some calculus notes and planned out how i'm going to teach myself linear algebra! yayyyy!!! so i wasn't super unproductive but i definitely could've done more, but it's okay because i will redeem myself tomorrow. 

anyways i am so desperate to go to PROMYS. it has been a dream of mine since eighth grade summer when i took geometry to skip a year of math not because i wanted to get ahead but because i liked math so much that taking geometry over the summer seemed fun and i didn't want to go a whole 2 months without doing math. also i'm just a sucker for knowledge and learning i have always been curious and i remember falling asleep the day before my birthday was a physics textbook in my lap and when i woke up at 12:30 am there were a bunch of birthday messages in my dms. thank you everyone. i am sorry i missed them because i was reading a physics textbook. i never got really far into that textbook which is a bad habit of mine. 

oh my gosh guys i feel so rushed to do everything why did i barely do anything this sophomore year. you know what NO i did lots of things and i'm going to list out the things that i'm proud of doing this year because i don't give myself credit for trying even though i tried this year. and there's still a month left of school so why am i sulking??? i have a month left to achieve stuff until i'm a junior!!! the reason why i'm emphasizing the fact that i'm still a sophomore is because i feel the need to get a head start and starting things during sophomore year when you still have like a bunch of time left until college apps is better than starting junior year. it doesn't really matter but i feel rushed and anxious all the time so yea!

• i made a video game
• i submit a coding project for a competition which i have never done because i usually don't finish since i bail out the last minute because i'm used to not pushing myself super hard
• i got A's in the classes that i thought i wouldn't
• i studied super hard for my AP tests and they were both easy so that's good
• i made it to varsity for cross country and have pushed myself at almost every practice. almost because there's been a day or two where i didn't run like .5 miles when i was supposed to LOL not that big of a deal
• i started my journey of learning mathematical proofs, calculus, and am starting to learn linear algebra
• i improved my style (BIG ONE BECAUSE I ACTUALLY FEEL CONFIDENT NOW)
• i got co president for my favorite club ever
• i got social media manager for a nonprofit
• i got co chapter head for the same nonprofit
• i'm way more organized
• i'm more focused on my goals than i've ever been and my passion for math has grown exponentially
• i maintained all A's in my classes this year i guess that's an achievement
• OH I WON THE NCWIT ASPIRATIONS IN COMPUTING AWARD YAYY honorable mention :))) i'm surprised i got honorable mention cus i thought i'd get the lowest one but WOW YAY
• i created a workshop for my club that i worked really hard on and i'm really happy that i got it done because i made most of it from scratch and it was my first time actually developing a workshop. i followed this tutorial layout for the topic but i also structured it differently and wrote all of the lecture slides and code and i also learnt a bit of javascript for the workshop too so YAY
• i have achieved everything i've wanted to so far. anything that i haven't achieved is because i didn't set it as a goal and wasn't super focused on it but now that i know that i can achieve if i put my mind to it then i can do it!!!! WHICH IS WHY I WILL QUALIFY FOR AIME THIS YEAR. I WILL I WILL I WILL I WILLLLL

i will now be setting my goals tomorrow so i can feel even more of a sense of achievement

• get to at least 70% for driver's ed course
• maybe do this at home if you don't get to it at the library
• study for at least 3 hours for math olympiad
• go over textbook and do exercises
• finish ch. 1 and start on ch. 2
• finish some if not all of the problems from the 2017 amc 12a test
• if you finish all the problems then do either some alcumus or start on 2017 amc 12b test
• finish all of math homework (there's like one assignment you'll be fine) and skim over video lecture because you're too lazy to actually take notes for it
• finish at least 1/4 of history study guide
• finish ch 2.1 exercises of how to prove it and do notes for 2.2
• exercises for 2.2 at home if you don't have time at library
• start thinking about ideas for congressional app challenge
• think about format and then start planning it out, like how you did for the gwc ai challenge
• maybe even just re-use your idea for the gwc ai challenge but turn it into a usable website/app and not just a prototype
• find a course that will teach you how to code in swift so you can prepare for the swift student app challenge or congressional app challenge
• maybe start on linear algebra notes if you have time!!!! probably do at home. just for funzies don't stress it. this is the very last of my to-do list

this is a very ambitious to-do list but i know what i can do in a day and i have done this amount of work if not more in a day before since i am passionate about all of these things except maybe the driver's ed course...sigh...so that also pushes me to complete my tasks but i think i'm going to be focusing on self-studying for the rest of the school year ESPECIALLY learning some more about web development (javascript and other stuff), app development, and math which has a sorts of topics so yea!!!! can't wait guys!!!! i will be super productive tomorrow and update you guys IF I CAN actually i will. i will just write a very short blog post if i don't want to write a long one like this one. it will just have the same list i wrote in this blog post but with explanations as to why i did or didn't accomplish each task and then it will also have some snippets of my day and how i was feeling doing my to-do list and if i felt a sense of accomplishment doing them. YAYYYYYYY also i will wear a very fire outfit tomorrow because i got a couple of new garments and they're very cute so i can't wait to wear them :))) i also got mary janes they're so cute OKAY THAT'S ENOUGH TALKING it is 12:58 AM and i really need to stop staying up super late because when i wake up late i feel really horrible and do unproductive stuff for the rest of the day. it's not like a scientific thing that waking up early makes you more productive but that's just who i am as a person soooo yea! it's probably because FOR ME waking up early is associated with school and school is associated with productivity and working while waking up late is associated with playing video games and watching youtube videos and tv shows and staying in bed because that is what i do. 

OKAY ENOUGH BABBLING goodnight everyone. i hope you will also achieve what you want to achieve tomorrow and the day after that and the year after that and until you die. we got this guys! KEEP WORKING HARD!!!