brrly babbles journal entry #1

 hi guys! technically this blog is like my journal now because i just feel too lazy to actually write a journal entry on my ipad and also because i have too little to say for it to be a full journal entry on my ipad so i am just going to type up a blog post. 

i've done a lot of posts like this but this is the first one that i officially call a journal entry because today is the day i recognize that sometimes my blog posts don't have to be centered around a certain topic and that i usually just use my blog to journal! whenever you see a "brrly babbles journal entry" post you will know that i'm just babbling about whatever i want to. technically the title means "brrly babbles about whatever she wants to because she's bored" okay i'm just rambling on and on so let's move on

i am about to take my guitar and piano lessons and my GOSH i have no motivation at all to take them. my stomach hurts too and i'm pretty sure it's because i ate really spicy noodles yesterday. like not buldak but it was this restaurant that sells really spicy ramen. it was yummy but not as good as buldak so ill stick to buldak. anyway i really have no motivation at all. i just want to study math but because of my impending doom (2 hours of music lessons) i have been procrastinating for the past...4 hours?... i don't know i haven't exactly been counting or keeping track of time. i will probably feel really motivated after those 2 hours though. WELL i'll actually take a break because i take a lot of breaks. well i DESERVE IT because 2 straight hours of music lessons is going to make me tired so i'll take a break and then ill record myself studying so i don't get off track. 

when i'm recording myself studying i don't want to fool around on camera because what kind of person would want to watch that kind of video? i mean nobody actually watches my study with me videos because the whole purpose of my youtube channel is so i can express myself freely and also be productive, not to entertain others and appeal to the public. however, the thought of someone watching my study with me videos gives me enough motivation to do what im supposed to be doing on camera. also i just like to make videos because its aesthetically pleasing or whatever. i really like documenting my life pretty much. i mean i journal, i blog, i make videos, i take pictures of everything, i post everything on instagram. WOW GUYS i never actually put the puzzle pieces together until now. i am a very expressive person who likes to document her life! WOW! how awesome guys!

anyways i will be doing some geometry because my friend needs a little help with her summer class (im getting paid IM GOING TO BE RICH) and that will be off camera because its all digital and i just dont feel like recording that. afterwards if i even have time im going to do some of my amc 10 studying. well maybe i wont even get to the amc 10 studying because the geometry stuff has a lot of tasks that i need to do and i wont get it done in a day and its due in 2 days so i'm actually screwed if i take my focus off of it today. WELL maybe i'm just super smart and will finish the entire thing in one day because i took geometry last summer but MAYBE NOT who knows guys!

i also have quite a lot of coding to do. okay let me list out my tasks for the week because i need to set priorities in order to get things done:

1. geometry course

    - im getting paid hella
    - my friend needs help!

2. amc 10 studying 

    - I NEED TO PASS THAT DAMN TEST
    - i have barely been preparing for the first half of the year and i am locking in NOW
    - i have a lot of concepts to learn

3. ap chem hw 

    - theres a lot i still need to do
    - i have three weeks left but technically two because i'm going on a trip and i also will be suffering from jet lag and i have other things to do as well

4. ap comp sci hw

    - i have not been doing the assigned problems for the past two weeks and uhhhhh...i have around 16 left....
    - i was supposed to be doing them everyday lol

guys lately i've been very disinterested in coding and it's kinda making me sad. do i not like coding anymore WHATS GOING ON okay maybe i just need a new field of programming to study like cybersecurity because it's very interesting. i just haven't been doing interesting coding stuff i guess. i need to find new coding problems to do and ill be okay. i am very passionate about problem solving so thats why i like math and why i got into coding in the first place. i like to create things but i also liek to solve problems so if there is no problem to solve i am very disinterested. WOW HOW COOL okay i'm not losing my passion. i also went through this last year with coding. it's okay I'M OKAY. 

also i gave up on my girls who code summer program because i don't like how it's structured and i barely feel like i'm learning anything. the program is good it's just not for me. i learn differently and i get very bored watching the videos and doing the projects. i guess it's because there's no set problem to solve, you're just learning how the different topics work and whatever but it's just not for me i guess! it's okay i still like to code but i just need a different format to continue my passion.

anyways bye i don't feel like writing anything else LOLOOOL